Blue Storm Wavespell
Day 1: How do I call forth the resonance
of my true vibration?
Blue Storm Qualities: Catalyst, transformer, liberator, activation
for ascension, purification, light body, transformation, reunion,
thunderbeing, lightning path, initiation by fire, ecstasy of freedom,
Blue Storm is the initiation by fire, the lightning path, the arrival
of the thunderbeings who bring the final transformation. To the
Maya, Blue Storm represents the storm, the thundercloud full of
purifying rain , and the lightning that shatters any false structuring
of reality. Blue Storm is the purification of the 'body temple'
and the ignition of the light body. In these last years of a twenty-six-thousand-year
Mayan Grand Cycle, Blue Storm comes to help you in the disintegration
process that moves you from separation to ascension. This initiation
by fire breaks any false containers of self that cannot withstand
the flame of transmutation. Only your true identity will live through
these fires, for you will be reborn in the hear of All That Is.
Blue Storm provides the water that purifies and quenches your spiritual
thirst. In this state of consciousness, you stand willing to surrender
everything. You give up what you seem to be in order to
become fully what you are. You step into the fires of the
unknown, and you are changed forever.
Blue Storm catalyzes and prepares your nervous system and circuitry
for complete transformation. It is the electromagnetic storm of
transmutation, the clearing and quickening of your physical, mental,
emotional, and etheric bodies. As you become aligned with the descending
energies, and evolve in consciousness, you body's vibration is raised,
becoming less 'dense'. Your new alignment ignites the quickening
process that transmutes the shadows of the past, including experiences,
judgements, thoughtforms, and old patterns that have held you back.
As you move into this new vibration, you may feel off balance. In
this transformational shfit, you will feel unusual quickenings on
every level of your being. You will sense emotional and physical
'imbalances' and restructuring. Your issues will be catalyzed and
brought out for you to address. By being present with your old patterns
you have a unique opportunity to access the energy of Blue Storm,
which is experienced as an inner transformational 'storm', a natural
part of the process of vibrational shift and quickening.
Your innate resonance with these energies may bring on some intense
experiences. For example, you may experience unusual brain sensations
as the light-sensitive pituitary and pineal glands are activated.
You may also experience ringing in the ears, muscle and joint aches,
and nervous system disordeers, as well as tingling, heat waves,
and heart palpitations. Though the intensity may at times feel overwhelming,
your heart-knowing will tell you the difference between these experiencesand
real health concerns. These changes stem from the heightened frequency
of light in your system and are a natural part of the process of
One powerful technique that will help you in your transformation
and purification process is to meditate, opening yourself to Spirit
and infusing your entire being with light and love. This may sound
simple, but it can have profound results. You are creating the sacred
ground where your physical form meets your light body. Much like
gestation and birth, it is a process that, once begun, has its innate
Day 2: What are my relationships teaching me? What
are my Obstacles?
Yellow Sun qualities: Illumination, fire, cosmic/christ
consciousness, bliss, union, wholeness, unconditional love, crown
chakra, ascension, solar mastery, lanuage of light, ecstasy, limitless
bliss, enlightenment, universal fire.
In the shadow of Yellow Sun, you may be unaware of
or feel disconnected from your own true nature. Thus, the light
of Yellow Sun reflects your shadow's potential. On this journey,
you are being offered release from all past identities, lifetimes,
and karma. This process retrieves any separated parts of self, restoring
all potential into the union of wholeness. By facing and integrating
your shadows, you can free yourself into the greater constellation
The shadow of Yellow Sun also reflects your limiting views of self
in relation to your concept of God. It is important to remember
tha thow you see divinity is how you see yourself! If you do not
see yourself as an integral part of the Divine you are functioning
in th shadow of Yellow Sun.
Another shadow of Yellow Sun is conditional love, which is really
part of the process of learning how to express unconditional love.
Conditionality often implies fear, separation, and issues of self
worth. Unconditionality expresses without judgement, limitation
or expectation. Unconditional love is your original state of being,
that which you naturally are.
You are the model of what it means to be fully human. In Yellow
Sun's shadow are the ideals of society. Look at your personal ideals.
You are being asked to release them and to embody the limitless
principles of the light. As you become a model of loving acceptance,
shadow and light embrace as one, and the world is lifted. You become
the new myth emerging. Through the embodiment of unconditional love,
one person at a time, the new world is born.
As you express unconditional love, you become more than you previously
perceived yourself to be. You become illumined, the full manifestation
of your divinity. In the embrace of your humanity, accept yourself
and others unconditionally. Magnify your full presence. Yellow Sun
will come in myriad forms to assist you. Be limitless. Accept and
understand the nature of judgement, fear, light and dark within
yourself and others. Love and accept yourself and others as you
are, freed from previous boundaries. You are the dawning of the
Day 3: How does my creativity express my spiritual
Red Dragon Qualities: Source of life,
breakthrough, divine nurturance & support, receptivity, primordial
Mother, undivided primal waters, primal trust and nourishment, birth.
Red Dragon: Primal trust means making choices with no guarantees,
knowing that divine nurturance will provide what is needed for your
journey. It means making choices moment by moment, implicitly trusting
your innate steering mechanism of heart-knowing. Primal trust implies
surrendering to the will of the divine self, letting go of what
your ego deems to be control of the outcomes in your life. It means
deeply trusting the processes that are at work within your present
spiral of evolution.
The energy of Red Dragon asks you to embrace the depth of your receptivity.
Perhaps you have been taught that it is better to give than to receive.
Giving is a powerful way to learn how to receive, but it is not
the whole picture. There is a circuit of completion in giving and
receiving that happens within you and in your external world at
the same time. If you trust unconditionally in the giving, you are
not attached to how the gift is received. When you freely give,
you fill your cup with sweet waters, which you can then offer innocently
and purely to another. Know, on one level, that your gift is poured
out universally regardless of how it appears to be received. However,
when the gift comes from ego, it is limited by expectations and
conditions. Love just is. It is neither given nor taken; rather
it is simply discovered and allowed.
It is also a great gift to allow others to give fully to you, for
in your receptivity the circuit of love is completed. Love is all
that is, and by completing the circuit of giving and receiving on
the physical plane, you form an infinite loop that continually expands
into new octaves of expression on other planes.
Trust in the larger pattern to provide what you need. Open to receive.
Communicate your feelings, desires and dreams.
Day 4: What form will my spiritual journey take?
White Wind Qualities: Spirit, breath, wind, presence, truth, communication,
inspiration, non-tangible, idealistic, simplicity, integration of
polarities, unseen forces, co-creator of reality.
White Wind is the galactic wind, the catalyzing current, the Spirit
that moves through all things. It is the divine breath that gives
life to all creation, the unseen essence of solar energy. White
Wind is the breath of inspiration, the fertilizing force of the
wind. Its essence is the movement of Spirit as it penetrates into
form to enliven, purify and inspire.
Allow your life to be more like the wind, free-flowing and open
White Wind represents spontaneity and simplicity. As you experience
the truth of the present moment, White Wind leaves you free to move
on to the next moment without the baggage of desire, regret or expectation.
White Wind is the simple knowledge that invisible forces are always
moving in your life, guiding and inspiring.
White Wind also embodies the concept of presence. Presence is an
expression of beingness, a creator of intimacy. It has to do with
being wise in your simplicity. From simple beingness, your true
identity emerges. Presence is being open, aware, and in the now.
Presence is 'being there' for whatever is.
Think back to a time when someone looked deeply into your eyes,
acknowledging your beingness with their full presence. Remember
how wonderful and intimate that felt. When you wnat to be intimate
with someone, become equally open, aware, and present. When you
bring your awareness into the present moment, everything else falls
away. When you are fully present, your mind is not preparing responses
to what it is hearing while you're listening and feeling. Drop your
evaluating and reactive nature. Trust that your heart will have
the appropriate response when the time comes. Allow your mind to
be quietly responsive, like a pool of water, natural in its unconditional
acceptance of the moment.
Presence is simple. It is like being caught in the moment by the
beauty of nature. Presence is your natural state of being. When
you are present, your heart feels open, charged, full. When you
are present, whether alone or with another, you are loose and relaxed.
Time may seem to slow down. You can expand your awareness with ease,
allowing yourself to truly see and be seen. You let your feelings
speak through your eyes, and the 'feeling channel' in you breathes
freely, without expectation or judgement.
Day 5: What is my core purpose?
Blue Night Qualities: Abyss, serenity, "looks-within"
place, enclosing darkness, stillness, dreamfield matrix, the unconcious,
abundance, mystery, sanctuary, journey into self, dream exploration,
Blue night is the dark mystery within, the journey into self, that
place to which you can always retreat to garner the gifts of your
process subjectively. You are being asked to enter into and explore
your process subjectively. Blue Night is the immense field of potential
found in the depths of human emotion and feeling. The touch of Blue
Night is like the moment you crawl into bed and feel yourself surrounded
by warmth, darkness and peace.
Dreamtime holds powerful opportunities. It is a field where potential,
past, and future are held in the same matrix as the present moment.
If such a construct is foreign to you, stretch your mind and entertain
the possibility that you could help to dream a different reality
into being. Enter into the mystery where reality is actually created.
In becoming a conscious dreamer, you can assist in literally creating
a new reality for yourself, as well as constributing to the larger
dream that is emerging. By focusing on this creation, your thoughts
and intentions are projected at superluminal speeds across the crystal
grid network that encompasses universes. This energetic field seeds,
supports, and empowers the creation of an unfolding reality.
At a certain point, when a critical threshold of
energy has been focused on a clear intent such as world peace, the
underlying constructs of reality shift and a new reality begins
filtering into human experience. Make no mistake: great change is
seeded by conscious dreamers who understand and know that they are
co-creating the larger dream.
Day 6: How do I balance the Male and Female
energies within myself in order to bring Heaven to Earth?
Yellow Seed Qualities: Seed, self-germination, creation,
flowering, power of growth, seeding manifestation, fertile ground,
gestation, opening, erupting possibilities, awareness.
Yellow Seed is the ordered pattern of growth. You and your life
are the fertile soil, and the mystery blooms within you through
the power of your intention or seed thoughts. Just as a seed contains
the hologram of its completion, the process of manifestation follows
a natural order. In this gestation process, your intention is quickened
by Spirit. The charged seed, your true desire or vision, becomes
the focus for germination.
What can you open that will support receptivity and assist the germination
of your seed intentions? Envision the seed receiving the invitation
to grow in the openness of your world. Viscerally feel the possibility
of your heart's dream emerging. Your true desires and dreams contain
an innate intelligence that can break through even the rigidity
of fixed expectations. Planting a new seed, even in the hard soil
of old belief systems, can bring unexpected magic and growth.
Be willing to break open the constraining shells of past patterns,
the shackles of belief structures. Call forth your creative involvement
with life. This involvement frees and awakens the powerful energy
of the life force, shifting your perceptions and experience, catalyzing
the manifestation of your dreams. Participate spontaneously in your
growth, unrestricted by the illusion of old structures that once
provided safety. Move forward into the light of new possibilities.
Tropism is the tendency to respond or move toward something by natural
attraction. Through a code inherent within, a sprouted seed grows
toward the light and a sunflower follows the Sun. In like manner,
you respond to the light of your Essence Self, opening naturally
to the fulfillment of your true nature. Through your own process
of living and learning, you generate and plant various intentions
and desires. As your natural growth pattern is catalyzed and awakened,
your truth germinates in wisdom, emerging into the light in which
all seeds flourish. Thus, as you plant your own truth, more truth
comes to light. In this way, you create ever more fertile ground
in which to explore and express all that you are.
Day 7: What can I do to stand
in the light of my full mystical power?
Red Serpent qualities: Passion, sexual energy, life
force, vitality, sensing, body wisdom, instinct, creativity, serpent,
integration, intimacy, motivation, desire, kundalini, purification.
Red Serpent invites the purifying spark of the sacred
fire, the kundalini, to align and integrate your body, mind and
spirit. Red Serpent can help you uncover apparent blockages in specific
chakras to clear an align them. If you are working on a process
of purification, invite Red Serpent to assist you.
Red Serpent's symbol is the serpent, representing healing and wholeness.
This Mayan medicine can remove toxins,
rejuvenate and transform dis-ease. Red Serpent is also known
by the Maya as the kultanlilni, or kundalini, the energy that moves
up from the base of the spine and out through the crown chakra.
When the seven chakras are fully activated, one experiences an enlightened
Red Serpent represents the basic structural apparatus of your motivations,
instincts, desires, and your innate movement toward wholeness. Red
Serpent asks you to shed the skin of your past and step into the
fires of alchemical transmutation. In this, rebirth is revealed.
This desire is an innate response encoded in the depths of your
With the energy of Red Serpent, you learn to use the innate intelligence
of the body. In this culture you may have become separated from
this wisdom. It works like this: when you suppress and ignore your
issues, your body receives and retains the unconscious metaphors
of that which is ignored. This may be expressed through physical
symptoms that bring your unconscious issues to conscious awareness.
When this happens, work toward a more conscious relatonship with
your body - and work with the physical metaphors in order to heal
yourself on all levels.
The body has a specific kind of consciousness through which messages
are clearly delivered. In fact, the body itself is a living metaphor
that mirrors your mind, emotions and spirit. However, the body also
remembers all it has experienced, and consequently holds the consciousness
of the past within it, including past wounds and traumas. In healing
these, remember the innocence of your body. Treat it with love and
respect. Open yourself to be aware of its messages and metaphors
rather than storing them. Be willing to look at the positive intent
beneath any symptoms or physical process your body is using to communicate.
Explore whatever it may be asking you to see.
In this alignment process, you can use images or energies that come
to you in meditation or dreams. Journey through your body to catalyze
and explore any sensations, colors, shapes, or images. In these
times we have a profound opportunity to transcend both our physical
and our spiritual genetics. The body's integration provides an unparalleled
opportunity for personal evolution. Learn to expand and utilize
your senses to access your body's wisdom and vitality. Don't 'think'
about it; simply allow your body to sense intuitively the
solutions necessary for change and growth.
Red Serpent also represents the connection between powerful physical/ecstatic
experiences and the light of higher consciousness. This is an initiation
of awakening through the body and senses, rather than in
negation of them. As Jose Arguelles says in The Mayan Factor, "Like
the Maya, we shall understand that the path to the stars is through
the senses." Within the body are held the keys to fully awakening
our consciousness. This deeper understanding is expressed in tantric
practices, where spirituality and sexuality are integrated and honoured
as a means to enlightenment. Red Serpent represents the integration
of mind, body and spirit.
Use the body as a tool for transformation. Learn how
to use passion and the senses as a means of access and alignment
to higher consciousness. Follow your gut-level intuitions and instincts
to make choices in the moment.
Be willing to look at issues you have concerning intimacy
and sexuality. Make sure that you are not separated from the dance
of passion that is in union with your divine nature. Sense your
deeper desire for union and intimacy. Red Serpent calls on you to
awaken your vitality, body wisdom, and passion for life.
Day 8: How do I resonate harmoniously with
the new Golden Octave? (the new energy on earth)
White World Bridger Qualities: Change, transformation, release,
multi-dimensional consciousness, surrender control, revelation,
death/rebirth, transmutation, forgiveness, humility.
In this life-time you are being asked to release and surrender.
Surrender is the opposite of giving up. It is freeing yourself from
the desire to be in control, letting go of how you think things
should be. Surrender is freedom. You are being invited to release
yourself from the bondage of preconceived action, to let everything
be all right as it is, so that you can live a more inspired life
in the moment!
You are being asked to take action in the process of surrender and
release. You are requested to die a symbolic death, to surrender
your limiting beliefs. Symbolic death unveils the self by cutting
away the outgrown parts of yourself that no longer serve you. In
such death, ego structures fall away to reveal the garden of the
true self. Look for new ways of being, new people, new ideas, and
new directions that will move into the vacuum created through surrender
and release. Like yeast, surrender enlivens and empowers you to
experience more of life's fullness.
Holding on to past patterns and grievances only limits the possibilities.
Forgive yourself. Forgive others. Let go. Surrender whatever limits
you. Face whatever you are resisting. In the experience of any loss,
it is never too late to complete. Through your willingness to walk
in the dark forest, insights and revelations will naturally emerge.
Accept the truth of your present situation. Through accepting what
is, you are free to go forward. Change and growth become easier
and more natural. Each experience in this enlivened state of surrender
allows for more joy.
The colour for White World-Bridger is forest green. You, like the
symbol of the evergreen tree, are alive and green amidst the process
of apparent death and trans formation of winter. Green creates a
feeling of balance and restful calm. It is restorative and healing,
grounding, and centering. If you wish to access the power of White
World-Bridger, visualize forest green.
Day 9: How do I shine the light for others?
Blue Hand qualities: Doing, completion, accomplishment,
physical creativity, organizer, healer, opening, beauty, dance,
gateway, knows, identification, mudras, acting "as if",
spiritual tools, prist/priestess.
Blue Hand Qualities: completion, gateway, opening,
beauty, spiritual tools, divination, identification, acting 'as
if', dance, mudra, priest/priestess.
Blue Hand is a gateway, an opening, a portal from one understanding
to another. A clue to the meaning of Blue Hand is found in the meditation,
"I am, by thinly veiled design, the threshold to other dimensions.
In my ending is my beginning. The initatory gateway awaits."
Blue Hand is the seventh or last archetype in the cycle of development
of primary being. It represents the power found in completion. Blue
Hand is seen as a closure, which is really an opening to another
level of being.
Like the fluidity of moving water, Blue Hand is associated with
the process of dance, mudra, and beauty. This movement is a metaphor
for the ebb and flow of life.
Blue Hand represents the 'beauty way', the ability to see intrinsic
beauty within yourself and in all things. Living the beauty way
requires being in your full beauty and power. From this place, your
self-authority naturally flows. This is the position where your
ego is aligned with divine will. When you are standing in your full
beauty and power, your very presence invites others to be all that
The energy of Blue Hand will also help you to manifest spiritual
skills - especially those intuitive gifts such as oracular divination.
In each incarnation, you bring certain gifts. Each path - from priest
and priestess to shaman and dancer to artist and gardener - carries
varied tools and skills. You have chosen certain gifts and tools
that offer you a way to interact with others and your life process.
This may be as simple as calling on your innate wisdom and insight
in order to see clearly the gifts and tools that you carry.
Day 10: What does my heart desire to manifest?
(in western astrology this day matches your 10th
house/MC in your chart. Calling/Life Objective made real)
Yellow Star qualities: Way show-er, harmony, beneficial
combinations, expanded love, elegance, mystical visionary, starseed,
octave, clear perspective, Mind of Light.
You are a starseed! You contain a holographic 'seed
packet' of your evolution into the Mind of Light and the energy
that directs you toward wholeness. This resonance offers an expanded
view of the larger self and new ways of perceiving reality. Through
self-acceptance, you are gifted with this journey. Yellow Star is
ignition, like a cosmic milkweed explosion of resonant sparks. It
is the launching pad from which you can hear the rumble of the rocket
of your accelerated evolution.
Yellow Star's starseeded gift is the revelation of the harmony that
unites all things. Instead of just aspiring to be harmonious, become
harmony. Practice harmony not just as an abstraction, but as a living
reality. This practice blends different energies, thoughts, people,
and processes. Act on intuitive guidance as to what to combine and
when. As you begin to follow your heart, you will know the feeling
of being on the return path to the stars.
Yellow Star offers you the ability to hold a greatly
expanded focus, a unity of awareness that encompasses aspects of
the larger constellation of self. An example of this would be a
simultaneous awareness of the desires of the existential self and
the truth of the Essence Self. This star harmony encompasses the
greatly enlarged perspective of your starseeded self, the part within
you that holds the potential of your greatest destiny.
Unlike the preceding 7 tones, which were seperate
and distinct, Yellow Star begins a more complex harmonic series
as it completes the preceding octave. On a spiritual level, Yellow
Star begins the development of higher being. The fundamental tones
that occur in this series are of a more expanded frequency than
those of the preceding seven tones. In this new octave, there is
alignment in the harmonies of Earth and the harmonies of the stars
that are now being sounded on Earth. Yellow Star is the first in
a series of star harmonies that evoke accelerated growth of the
starseed potential within you.
Day 11: What do I need to let go of in order
to be truly liberated?
Red Moon Qualities: signs, signals, awakened attention, understanding,
self-remembrance, divine guidance, Godseed, cosmic communication,
One shadow of Red Moon is the tendency to float in
the river of forgetfulness, feeling separate from clear awareness
and guidance. Due to the influence of the collective trance, you
may have unthinkingly accepted the beliefs and values of your culture.
Because of the illusion of separation from the Divine, this trance
may have deepened your experience of forgetting.
Another shadow aspect of Red Moon is the tendency
to direct your life primarily on the desires and needs of your ego
instead of opening to the guidance of your Essence Self. Choices
at your "growth edge" may feel unsure, for they transform
your beliefs on your journey toward wholeness. Your intuitive guidance
and internal proddings will trigger remembrance of what seems to
have been forgotten. Pay attention to any sensory signs, any guidance
that gives you strong feelings. In the larger pattern of cosmic
communication that is available in each moment, these signs are
painted everywhere. Be the translator-beacon. Let Red Moon awaken
the interpreter within you who decodes such signs. Let Red Moon
assist you in clearly understanding your perceptions.
Remembrance is a natural process. Use it naturally,
without becoming obsessed with it. Being overly concerned with remembrance
can actually hamper your process. Also be aware of any tendency
to look to others for information about your remembrance. As fellow
journeyers, we catalyze each other; however, you are the
one who truly knows. Don't get lost or confused by looking outside
Another shadow of Red Moon is self-deprecation. In
this shadow you may feel like hiding your light so that it limits
you from being seen as the beacon you truly are. This tendency can
stem from your shy or wounded inner child, whose sensitivity may
have been suppressed thorugh life experiences. This may create a
desire to withdraw or feelings of aloneness and insecurity. On the
other side of this shadow, you may be overidentified with being
the beacon for others. Such issues show you what is between you
and the clear expression of all that you are.
Self-criticism may be supported by internal self-talk,
which brings to awareness the negative self-judgements that have
been separated unconsciously into shadow. You have picked up your
internal critic from the judgements of a critical world. Red Moon
invites you to heal the inner critic. Take the blinders off. Make
a conscious effort to reframe self-talk that is self-diminishing.
Be aware of your response to the judgemental and critical remarks
of others. Allow relationships with others to support your fullest
expression. As you stand in your own light, you will naturally fulfill
that which you came here to do.
Day 12: How can I utilize my relationships to explore
and expand any of my self-limiting constructs? ...and how do I Inspire
White Dog Qualities: companions of destiny, heart, love, service,
loyalty, spiritual strength, guardians and guides, breakthrough,
emotional body issues, ego, recasting the past, new beginnings.
Recognize your Companions of Destiny! One of the gifts of White
Dog is the calling in and recognition of other companions of destiny.
Other beings with the same longing are waiting to meet and acknowledge
you - beings who can see you as you authrentically are. When you
have truly been seen, you feel empowered, and remembrance of a shared
sacred trust is ignited. This is a natural process, divinely designed
for recognition through vibrational affinity, freed from personal
White Dog can be seen as an access point for developing relationships
with guides, totems, allies and guardians. There are many ways to
work with these spiritual guides, including guided visualizations,
shamanic journeys, and meditation. A useful construct is viewing
them as aspects of yourself, part of your life stream that is asking
to be integrated. Remember, there is no 'other'. In this grand adventure,
you are being asked to embody all that you are.
The Harmonic Wisdom of White Dog is affinity, the attraction
of like vibrations or substances for one another.
Day 13: How do I surrender to the perfection of the
larger pattern of my Essence Self?
Blue Monkey Qualities: innocence, spontaneity, play, magic, inner
child, humour, disruption.
Blue Monkey represents the Divine Child, the child that is ever
in a state of open-hearted wisdom, innocence, trust, simplicity
and joyful wonder. What would it feel like to actually be a
magical child in this culture and time? The secret that very few
know - because they may feel more comfortable trying to protect
themselves - is that the divine child offers the strongest of all
protections, the invulnerability of openhearted Love. Through innocence,
a kind of immunity is created that allows the divine child to be
transparent so that the apparent 'slings and arrows' of
the world can pass right through without being personalized into
wounds, reactions or hurt feelings. This is the path of innocence
regained. Transparency is the path of the new consciousness.
In this New Myth, your spontaneous, divine child will usher in and
anchor the new frequency. How can you heal your inner child? Explore
what truly gives you joy. Find types of work that support your sensitivity
and create deep satisfaction. Be simple: love, play, dance, draw,
colour, sing. These activities are for all divine children - they
serve the expression of the magical child in everyone. Consciously
make time for the joyful freedom and magic of play!
The number for Blue Monkey is eleven, the vibration wherein novelty
and spontaneity break down resistant forms. When unity merges with
Essence Self, a mystical foundation is created that disintegrates
old patterns. This is actually integration in disguide. As your
walls tumble down, they crack into a smile, and the illumination
of self shines through.